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Apr. 12th, 2005 @ 06:29 pm (no subject)
To day I am 17 years old starting a new year of my life.
Everything I did wrong is in the past from this day there is a new chapter of my life.
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Feb. 16th, 2005 @ 03:46 pm (no subject)
Uck I feel like shit I have the ful for the last few days
took wednesday and thursday and i mioght take tomorrow off
and then i am off to lake placid for the weekend i hope i will get better
it sucks being sick i hate it.
wish me the best of luck to get better!!!!
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Feb. 13th, 2005 @ 05:43 pm (no subject)
Just wondering How many people like what our school did today
Gas leak and had kids walk through it doors open so it spreads
can u say Dum Ass
we should have been let out or been out of the buliding till it was fixed
Do u agree
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Feb. 6th, 2005 @ 10:42 pm New Poem
Faces: relievedSo So Happy

New poem that i just made up think of You

Here to hold you in my arm
Once second at a time and
If I cry you might know why it
is cause I Love You
till the day I die.

 

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Jan. 25th, 2005 @ 03:47 pm (no subject)
The weather outside that window is so beautiful the kids are out side hang out and having fun in there shorts and short sleeve shirts and you are trapped in a place that you dont like till the that beautiful person you see comes walking through that door. With her eye so bright and beautiful you feel if you are a totally new person look in to a new life. Then you realize that you have no chance but you decide to give it your best shot to see what you got. Then you end up in the hole right where you were when you fell asleep and had that crazy dream.
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Jan. 20th, 2005 @ 06:51 pm (no subject)
TOday is a good day i passed my road test in yorktown and it was a thrill to do cause everything that could go wrond did go wrong to make it a changele. the car was beign stupid cause the RPM were at 2 and 1/2 on a stand still i did not even have to hit the gas peadel to move and i was afaired that the car would end up dieing on me. but thank god i passed i am 100% happy for today. YEA YEA YEA
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Jan. 17th, 2005 @ 10:18 pm (no subject)

I was wondering how many people are acutally my friends
How many people know who i really am. Well i am not the person that most people think that i am
i am a good as a person can get I might act stupid but to tell you the truth i know what i am talking about when it comes to some ones eles life. I am willing to help any one that wants help.

I am going crazy i am taking so many classes to expand on my skills
I am gonna finish my Certified First Responder on Thursday a EMS CLASS to help save lives
In the summer i am taking a Firefighter 1 class to be trained in fire and if possible a Firefighter 2 if i get in.
I want to be the best that i can be all through my life. I want to become a Fire officer before i am 23 years old and i need those classes and more.

I have friends that are there for me and some that are  just saying that they are my friends.
 If people got to know who i am and what i love to do they would be suprise cause i put everyone eles in front of me and there safty before i put mine. I care about my friends more then my self and i am pround that i can do such a thing. But i comes to me no matter what i do i still feel like the same person. I feel Usless cause i dont see my self getting ahead in life i am put down by my self just because i get turned down so many time and i blame my self for being that idiot to ask. Is there anyone out there for me that is a question that i will never know till the time comes.

 

comment if you are a true friend of mine and leave your reaction to this writting.

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Jan. 14th, 2005 @ 10:05 pm (no subject)
about time this system got put back online
so i read it was a powerloss.

Any way i need to get my life in order my Friends wants me to go out with this girl but i dont know her and the way my luck is nothing works out right.


"I really want to hold that special someone in my arms and let her know how much i love her" But for the last 16 years of my life i have been single and dont know what it is like to have that feeling of that special some one in your arms.

I dont ask for much the only thing i would ever want is to go out with someone. The ones that i have asked out all ready that said NO i bacame really good friends with. I have so many friends and i only want on girlfrind but i guess that cant happen for me.

Is there something wrong with me so i have to change ???????
Cause at this point i will do anything to be happy.
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Jan. 10th, 2005 @ 10:34 pm (no subject)
Faces: boredscrewed up
: Country

I have been waiting here for ever and ever and I relized that waiting is not answer to live by but to get up and pick you self off of that dirty ground that you fell on after you beat your self up as the dirt is filling up with blood and tears from your body. ou think that everything is your fault and it is not but your first meaning is to blame yourself and not to think on why. You pick your self up off that bloody ground and wipe away your tears and move on till that other thing hits you again and you throw your self to the ground agian. I have been living my life in a chair going up and down form sunrise to sundown talkin to my self and look at what looks like heaven with the bright computer screen and Now I relize to my self i should blame my self cause i am not trying hard enought. i have to get out and enjoy my life before my time is up cause soon my life is gonna slip away from me and i am gonna want them back and not be able to get then back and I will be picking my self back up form that bloody ground. I need to find a way out of this shell and to find a new one where i can live a good life and be more social with others.

 

Why do i write my writing suck Soem one tell me to stop cause this is borning you. I am a Complete idiot.

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Jan. 10th, 2005 @ 06:19 pm (no subject)
Faces: peacefulWHO AM I TO YOU IN YOUR EYES
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME! WHO IS THAT SPECIAL PERSON PLEASE LET ME KNOW CAUSE I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR EVER FOR YOU AND I CAN WAIT A LIFETIME. I AM HERE ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS LET ME KNOW WHO YOU ARE. =~)

I am the greatest person in the world according to what my friends have to say I have been living my life with out a girlfriend and I blame my self but i know it is not me but then i am lost WHY does this happen to me What did i do wrong.
Will Some one just give me a chance before turning me down
Once you get to know me you will see who i am. I can be sweet, I can be the person you never seen before, I have Been waiting for 16 years for someone to hold in my arms and to care for them. JUST GIVE ME A CHANCE PLEASE!!!!!
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